15 days until we move to austin, and the wait has just about become unbearable. my life has been in limbo for so long, and now i am just ready to have it be stable and secure. as stable and secure as moving to a city 6 hours from home can be.

speaking of being away from home, everyone is back from california, and it pretty much feels like they never left. the only thing that hints their absense is longer hair, bigger muscles, darker skin, and newer clothes. i wonder if they feel the same way. i know i did when i came back from yosemite. it was almost like it had been this huge elaborate dream, and nothing more. the things that happened to me in yosemite will never fully be told. the smells, the tastes, the visions could never fully be expressed, even if i tried thousands of years to do so.

and speaking of yosemite, i had a dream that one of my friends from yosemite proposed to me. i guess i said yes cause i was showing everyone my ring that was like two sizes too big. i remember him saying it was a little less than a carat. tim, in real life, was the first person that made me question the importance of dating a christian. it's hard when you know that they would treat you better than all of the boys that you have dated in the past. to tim, i hung the mooon. he was intrigued by the things that christian guys can get in every christian girl. i was different, and a challenge, and he knew that. tim really did propose to me that summer, mind you it was with an adjustable ring while he was drunk. just the way i always dreamed it would be.