ah. the blog ain't what it used to be. i do apologize for that. but my goal in life is trying to be awkward 24 hours a day...not entertaining. christmas is drawing nigh, and i have yet to buy my family any presents...apart from two things i picked up at old mill trade days for two family members of the female persuassion. i am never this behind on things like shopping. just haven't felt the vibe lately. the past three times i have been to old navy, i walk out empty handed. same thing happened last night at best buy. what has become of me? have i let that part of me die? i plan to attempt another purchase. maybe not today, maybe not next week...but someday. since the dude requested that all post their christmas lists, i decided to ablige. picture this. walmart. tuesday night. shopping with great company. and then i see it. a cookie press with 12 interchangable designs. ah. my heart palpitates with the thought of this june cleaver goodness. of course, there are the cd's, and the movies, and the books...and then, there is the cookie press. on it's own level of...of...desire. but i fear for the receiving of the cookie press. i fear that it will end up like every other gift eventually does. sitting, dusty and unused. dreams forgotten, excitement exchanged. when did christmas lists become hard? as a child, they would be pages and pages long, thanks to the endless toy commercials shown on saturday mornings. but now, i would kill for snow on christmas day, to remember to value the time i have with my family, and to not forget how the birth of Christ affects me today. and since this post is starting to sound a little bit like an amy grant christmas song...i'm signing off with these three thoughts. the taylor's was fun the other night...you all missed out. kelsey and sean are playing tonight...time...really unknown. i think i have heard 5 different times. i'll show up when i feel like it. and, it's friday. tonight i am going to party like it's 1999. did i party back then?